I don't know about you, but I feel stupid. It's just that. Sometimes, I just feel so... lonely should be the word I'm looking for. I know I have friends that always support me no matter what I do, well at least I hope they do, but I just feel like they're slowly fading away, turning into dust. Like I have entirely no clue of their identities, whether I can be myself or not, so pretentious, awkward around them, just. Plain self-conscious. And this sometimes isn't really what friends are supposed to be like around one another, or is it? I have no idea. But I guess it's partly my fault that I don't really mix well. I'm the odd one out. I'm the annoyingly clingy one. I'm the pretentious one. I don't know. I feel so lost. I feel as if my social life is slowly drifting away from me, and that's just too overwhelming to bear. Everyone else gets along perfectly fine, why not me? Why am I just stuck, at a loss of what to do, or what to say? That feeling just sucks. You know? Everyone's just. Nevermind. You wouldn't understand all the crap I'm saying anyway. Bye.